The Wisdom of Five

What if children are the sages we try to return to as adults?

Tatyana Sussex
4 min readApr 27, 2021
The young contemplator hosing down her brother. (Photo credit, author)

When I was about five, I’d sit in front of a mirror and stare at myself. Stare and stare and stare at a small brunette body sitting on the floor in front of a full-length mirror that ran the length of a bedroom door. I focused on myself unblinkingly, until I hit a daze-y, hazy state, and felt a lift-off, a separation that took me from inhabiting my body to being on the outside and observing.

My bedroom carpet was shag, in a two-tone pink: magenta and rose. There was a cherry tree outside the window. The closet occupied one side of my room and was kept shut because my grandmother’s Russian Orthodox icon was in there, and I had a nightmare about it one night.

It was 1968. The citizens of the world were shaking things up, but I was in my little five-year-old world of contemplation.

Don’t ask me what possessed my bike-riding, tomboy self to get existential, but my guess is that a lot of children have this soft opening, untouched by a hardened shell of self-consciousness; maybe a five-year-old is more naturally intimate with universal mysteries, before life piles on a series of programmatic and defensive thought-habits.

This was also decades before computers, social media, endless streaming entertainment, video…

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Tatyana Sussex

Writer, coach, swimmer, late-marrier. Guide, companion, and explorer at the trailhead of Everyday Creative Coaching: www.everydaycreative.net